BI THIRTY-FIVE FREDDIEBODIES
THE PROCESS Wednesday 2nd March 1972 CHURCH OF THE FINAL JUDGEMENT
Brethren, As it is,
1. 1 One: We feel particularly responsible for those who manifest the negative side of our Areas of Maximum Compulsion.
2 Two: When we make contact with such people we are drawn to them, because of an unconscious desire to lift the burden which we feel that WE have placed upon them.
3 Three: Because there is no awareness behind this desire, be- cause it is a compulsive demand rather than a detached require- ment, we must fail. The burden remains.
4 Four: However, as a poor substitute, we take upon ourselves the relevant negative characteristics - although this is no re- lief for them - rather like a child who feels remorse after having hurt another child, and offers to hurt himself as well in order to square the account.
5 Five: In the life time of each one of us, there has been one particular person who has 'caught' us in this way. There is one particular person from whom we have taken a really heavy load of negative characteristics which we did not have previously.
6 Six: For each of us there was a particular point in time when we took on this load; a point where our sense of responsibi- lity reached a peak; and whereas before that time we may have taken and enacted minor aspects of that person's character to a small extent, after that time we enact his character - the negative side of it - very heavily indeed.
7 Seven: The catchpoint might be an important or dramatic incident, a brief but significant time period, a change of circumstances or environment, or any similar highlight - or lowlight - in our lives.
8 Eight: The catchpoint may be at any time during our life. If it's one of our parents, for example, who caught us, the catch point could have been some time in our childhood.
9 Nine: We may have known the person who caught us for a long time before the 'catchpoint', or only a short time. We may con- tinue to know him afterwards, or we may not. Whichever, from that time onwards, we enact what we have taken on. It's not us; it's him. But we MAKE it us.
10 Ten: Example: you have a friend called Freddie. He hits all your reflexes, because he manifests the negative side of your Area. That draws you to him. It may not be the happiest of relationships, but it's a compulsive one, and difficult if not impossible to break off - even if you want to. A particularly charged incident involving both or you, brings your sense of responsibility for him hone to you with special intensity. That's the point when he catches you, and you take on a whole load of Freddie's worst personality traits. And from that point onwards, whether you ever see Freddie again or not, you carry him around with you like a body on your back - except this particular Freddie- body happens to be in your psyche!
11 Eleven: Until each of us knows who our particular 'Freddiebody' is, we have considerable difficulty in externalising a great deal of negativity, because we have taken it, not from someone outside of ourselves IN TIME, but from HIM - or her - way BACK in time. Only to HIM can we successfully externalise a large section of our own negative attitudes, and then only at that point in time when we took it from him.
12 Twelve: So, just as each of us has found his Area of Maximum Compulsion and his Area of Maximum Resistance, each of us can equally find his Freddiebody in exactly the same way.
13 Thirteen: On your list there may be a whole series of people or groups of people who have caught you in a minor way, both before your main catch and after it. Those who came before the catch helped to lead you up to it; prepared you for it by introducing you to some of the characteristics you were going to take on. Those who came after the catch helped to reinforce it for you; brought out the characteristics in you which you had taken on, and intensified them; a kind of refuelling.
14 Fourteen: But what matters is the catch itself and the person who caught you.
15 Fifteen: Although we talk about HIM - your Freddiebody - catching YOU, the choice, as far as you are concerned, was yours. You chose to be caught. You chose to take on the negative character- istics which he manifested. He could not have laid them on you if you had not wanted them. So although you can externalize the characteristics to him, you will gain nothing by offloading your responsibility for manifesting them onto him!
16 Sixteen: Having found out in the usual way just who your Freddie- body is and when he caught you, you will be asked to list all the characteristics which you took from hip t onto yourself at that time. This will give you a precise idea of what YOU caught, and there- fore what you can externalise back to him.
17 Seventeen: This list of characteristics describes, in the main, the difference - in a negative direction - between how you were before the catchpoint and how you were after it.
18 Eighteen: The catchpoint is usually recognisable by the fact that immediately after it you went into some kind of decline, lost or seemed to lose certain of your most important capabilities and assets. This of course being the direct result of suddenly taking on a particularly heavy burden of negativity.
19 Nineteen: When you have found your Freddiebody, the point at which he caught you, and what you took from him, you will find great relief in knowing precisely where a whole section of the negative side of your personality came from, and in externalising it there.
So be it.
[ Signature Robert ]
2 March 1972 ROBERT DE GRIMSTON
THIS MATERIAL IS THE PROPERTY OF THE PROCESS